50 things i don't 'get' about myself (and other humans) part 1 (#1 - #20)

i don’t ‘get’ what this is i’m experiencing or what impulse results in a desire to derive ‘meaning’ from it

i don’t ‘get’ concepts of ‘responsibility’ or ‘consequence’ outside of a discussion on metaphysics

i don’t ‘get’ how there can be human activity that ‘upsets’ me/any other human

i don’t ‘get’ subjective standards of ‘quality’ in art

i don’t ‘get’ what ‘love’ is or how humans have allowed an emotion so vaguely defined and so intense to persist mimetically without ‘serious’ discussion about its ‘purpose’ in contemporary communication

i don’t ‘get’ how to ‘get a job’

i don’t ‘get’ large quantities of [anything], i.e. 10,000 molecules, 100,000 meters, 1,000,000 humans, etc., seems unquantifiable/abstract

i don’t ‘get’ the human impulse to assert liking something more than [all other things/concepts/objects/information of value] or if that phenomenon is psycho-emotionally possible or if people ‘just say that’

i don’t ‘get’ multi-faceted coincidences or how humans associate them with ‘a greater, sentient power’, i.e. if you develop a relationship with a human who looks/acts similar to another or amalgam of humans you like and think ‘this is “meant to be”’

i don’t ‘get’ the instinctual response of ‘fear’ or how it functions in societal development/evolution or if it is an ‘appropriate’ response to [any stimulus]

i don’t ‘get’ acting angrily/aggressively in response to [any stimulus], especially another human (related to #3, i think)

i don’t ‘get’ science or how humans think any knowledge can be ‘valid’/‘factual’ regardless of ‘tests’/’proof’/’empirical [anything]’, when understanding reality is based in a false ideal that a human or ‘humanity’ can view the universe ‘objectively’, when ‘clearly’ a) humans are part of the universe and therefore have infinitely subjective experiences, b) the universe is fluid and the ‘rules’ change constantly, c) all knowledge is inevitably lost/improved upon, d) scientific notation/language is based in an arbitrary/historic system of symbols and not something derived from current understanding of ‘the nature of the universe’ and is therefore fundamentally ‘rife’ with paradox

i don’t ‘get’ the psychology of ‘the orgasm’ (male or female)

i don’t ‘get’ how humans interpret the brain/body’s ability to process chemicals, i.e. DMT, MSG, THC, nicotine, as ‘requiring’ justification via evolutionary biology when mutations that serve no evolutionary purpose but have little-to-no negative repercussions re procreation occur ‘constantly’

i don’t ‘get’ the sociological basis of ‘fads’

i don’t ‘get’ how humans extend feelings of empathy beyond other humans or onto non-living things for that matter

i don’t ‘get’ metaphors

i don’t ‘get’ (or can’t ‘wrap my mind around’) the fact that everything i interact with was somehow ‘made’ by other humans, i.e. cities, everything on the internet, the genetic structure and mimetic concepts/assumptions i use to interpret reality

i don’t ‘get’ sports

i don’t ‘get’ how individual humans allow writing, discussion, or ideas about philosophy/socio-political structure/economics to influence what/how they think re irl interaction with other humans, and subsequently allow themselves to determine those notions as ‘validated’/’true’/useful based on their interactions